Whatever the day is,

working a shift pattern that involves 7 days a week one day tends to melt into the next and I lose track of what day it is.

Now, the last few days have been wonderful, a quiet day on the roads Xmas day and off to friends on boxing day followed by two nice days at home. The problem, if I can call it that is that the last afternoon of the ‘off’ shift days I will have a down period of time when I start to wind up for the time back on the road, the next 4 days when my life is on the road, eat sleep and repeat.. Certainly not family friendly but it is a steady income.

Now sometimes the down period will be quite short and on the odd occasion it will be longer and harder border on depression, my loving wife is quite the empath.. What I mean is she reflects my emotions, when I am on a high life is great and when I am bouncing off the walls in the down time it reflects badly on both of us. This week was a bad week, well couple of hours anyway, maybe just a delayed reaction to the full moon but it was a bad time for both of us.

In February we will have been married 30 years, the love between us is clear and strong. But, we need time together to build and keep our relationship strong.

Happiness is a choice, sometimes choices are hard to make..

Happy new year friends and family,

yep been thinking..

and if you are the smart ones that are following this yes I have missed a few days,

Anyway, I have for some time been a having a polite argument with myself about what and where to go in my life, always wondering if there is more to what I can do, even can I work smarter not harder. OK so I enjoy my recovery job, I do it for the people and that seems to get me places in the job dealing with people that are either stressed due to broken down or shock because of the trauma of the RTC that they have just suffered. But, for some time also been very interested in the mind and the power it has, what you think you are.. you become, thanks to people like Derren Brown and others hypnosis has become something I enjoy and want to progress with.

Now, the other day I met a nice lady in the day job that was a hypnotist, was.. She tells me she gave up because she was to busy, to many clients that wanted help in the evening, So she gave it up for a career in the city! Which is a little strange as they had a couple of young children,

That got me thinking, what would I do to get to that stage? What a nice problem to have.

Get of here and where was I up to in that book,

 

Day 2 – Mixed feelings

Today was the first day back on shift on the day job. Mixed because I love my job, but at the same time I know 48 hours at least spread over the next 4 days is hard work, hard because I know that I feel like I am going to be spending more time in the truck than home and being tired enough to fall asleep after my dinner. The other side is I love the helping of others part, fixing people and picking up cars doing my best to leave a positive note on someones bad day.

Always feel down on the night before the shift starts, after a couple of wonderful days with the wife and the family, work starts and what has to be done is done, and there is todays lesson.. Why I am not doing that for myself? Throwing 48 hours per working week into something that is a benefit to me and my family and not someone else, hmm..

Lazy? Nope don’t see that one, I work hard for the day job, at least 48 hours is not easy per week. So, has to be confidence or worse scared..

Scared?!? (don’t laugh) Most people have some mental block somewhere in their head, so if you are scared of success without admitting it and doing something about it is going to hold you back without you even knowing it.

Scared of success, and freedom to do what you want? Crazy but may just be true…