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Continued from that well known social site because of what I am going to say will probably go against the “factcheckers” terms

I’m hurting, hurting because a family I have grown to love is going through a health scare. They are a loving family that have done their best to live right and help others..

Now then, a little of the history behind this, the family many moons ago had an issue with cancer, a long fight, long and hard but survived. Now anybody that reads deep into medical stuff knows chemo is brutal and leaves its own issues behind after. 

A young lady I know has been struck with cancer, shes a real pleasure, although I have not seen her for a while but on the socials we keep in touch. Its horrible to see the results.

I was told many moons ago and by a few people we all have cancer in us it just takes something to set it off, didn’t believe it or perhaps didn’t understand it at that time.. Or both..  As time went on I read more and learnt more, and now the more I read into diet, nutrition and biohacking it makes sense! I’ve said before you are what you eat, things like when you walk in a food store and see the one aisle that says healthy or healthier eating then what is the rest of it?  Cancer research used to say on their TV slots 1 in 4 will get cancer, then 1 in 2.. Now they don’t quote a figure, its getting worse you’d have to assume or believe right? 

Americans spend millions, billions on healthcare, and yet they now have more obese people than underweight, thats scary! ‘Food’ products on the shelf now have so many preservatives in them you would think you would live for many years more than the current life expectancy wouldnt you, nope that appears to be not true and yet health is getting worse. 

Now, going back to cancer, what if it was the body’s own defence against certain poisons in the body? Things in food the body cant cope with so it locks it in a tumour? Ok, maybe not all the time, but maybe most of it. What if the additional stuff pumped into food is the cause of cancer because the body is defending itself. Medical care is a multi billion dollar industry..

A person cured is a customer lost..

Read that line again..

My own experience, going for a health MOT when I turned 60, the healthcare ‘professional’ chatting away told me about putting me on Statins, before they had checked my blood! Now tell me its about health..

Then moving on to more current issues, the C19 jab, it never made sense to me how this jab was forced on to many people, then they said you can still get Covid, you can still transmit it, was produced so quickly using new technology etc. Didn’t like it, and I am certain I made the right decision, and now the information coming through is saying its created more problems than solved.

Yeah, I am not doing very well at the moment, I see so much corruption in the world, so SO much is about money and not about people. So, if you think the next prime minister is going to sort it out then sorry all I think you are sadly mistaken, they are all puppets of the same sick master

You are what you eat, so much processed food and seed oils creating more health issues than solving them.

You are what you eat,

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So, yes been a long time since I have posted anything, and whilst this is not on the conspiracy theory level, ok it might go that way by the end.

What you eat, now I have been driving my family mad since I started looking at what I was eating, looking at the ingredients on the average package in the supermarket is amazing! Talking of supermarkets why is it only a few shelfs at best are labeled healthy section.. so whats the rest of them?

More later… I will be back to finish this,

Return of the broken man

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Or at least sprained..

and strained, so just over two weeks ago doing the day job a simple wrong placement of footing and I went down rather heavy – results a painful ankle.

The following day I went to Southend hospital seeking medical advice, bless the staff there and thanks to them and looking after me, got an xray to confirm there was no break and it was indeed a heavy sprain.

Spoke to my employer who was very good about it, very good considering had only been in the job a few weeks. However, money is now weighing heavy on my mind.

Two weeks down on a paycheck is going to hurt when you live one month at a time, I used to joke why is there so much month left at the end of the money, its no longer a joke… after around 7 years in the recovery industry and doing my best to work at never needing to rely on benefits again I suddenly have no idea how I am going to pay my bills this month let alone get back to full time driving. I need to work,

I do try to keep the mood on the positive, the lighthearted mindset when I enjoy life and those around me, my loved ones and family.. yet suddenly I understand where dark depressed thoughts come from, those that dont know how to survive the night and turn to a bottle of drink or even drugs.

It is so hard at the moment to see the light at the end of the tunnel, it is the deepest darkest night for me and my family at the moment, yes I am holding out for the morning light and a positive move forward,

Diary of a broken man

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So here it is, not quite confession time and not a cry for help, although I need help..

Back in 2008 I took the family to Egypt on a holiday of a lifetime, incredible time is an understatement. Since then my mind lost its focus and money troubles hit, and hit hard. OK to be fair if I am honest my trouble began way before that losing my focus in the computer industry, I did not know what direction to take in the industry and lost a lot because of it.

So for the last 10 years I have been fighting to survive financially, my mind crashed and from holiday of a lifetime to just about affording a £10 sun holiday, although we have has some wonderful times there when a cotton thread budget its still a worry. Bit by bit debt collectors have come and gone and now a big one is a big threat to ruin me, I mean bankruptcy. Horrible word, a lot of people might say dont worry its not the end of the world and all sorts of trying to help nice comments but for someone of my age do you really want to end up retiring broke and bankrupt? No, not a nice thought.

My biggest hit and worry at the moment is an attachment of earnings from my local council, the law allows them to file an attachment with your employer and the brutal side is as long as you take home 60% of your earnings its ok to do it. It does not matter if you cant afford to do anything else the law wins. (typical) I went to a debt charity for help, I went to the CAB for backup, it wasnt nice, it hurt my mind badly. I could not see the wood for the trees and was at the end of my strength and was getting depressed over it.

The moral of this story and the reason for posting it in the open outside world, its ok not to be ok and it is ok to ask for help. I have produced a budget and documented how badly this is financially hard and is falling on deaf ears, seems that once they start blood out of a stone is possible even if it destroys the mind in the process.

Hope is fading, I need a car as the existing one had to get scrapped, finding another one is hard work and getting to be a stress. Mood swings for the first time in many years are affecting me, but the wife knows and is very supporting understanding and seeing the struggle in my day to day life.

Anyway and oh well, back to hunting for a car, or just a beer, back to work in the morning to earn my little bit, to enjoy one day a month when the bank account is above £5,