Fight or flight,

Not quite that bad, but… Last Wednesday had a little incident and managed to create an issue with my ankle. Cant go into details at the moment but it still hurts a week later. So, the day job currently is driving a recovery truck, a job I enjoy for the challenge and the people, but mainly the people that are having a bad day and my pleasure of helping them in the hour of need is great. I have gone from times gone by hiding behind a computer, screen and a phone to a need for personal interaction. This is daily part of the joy, the hard part of my job is the time of my shifts, 12 hour days on a good day is hard. Sometimes it flies by and others drag, same as anywhere I guess.

Most of this I guess is a bit feeling sorry for myself, after a good few years of the odd day off sick and not needing any state handouts I suddenly find me grounded from a small incident and having to apply for said state handout 🙁

Then having said that, it made me think about income, how vulnerable we are to life changing moments in life. We are a very materialistic country and people in the west, dumb people living on smartphones. But what if, and that’s where this is coming from. I have no life insurance is the horrible scary reality, my job is quite dangerous and whilst my role involves risk assessments on every job and continually checking all my angles there is an element of unknown.

Where am I going with this, no idea.. That’s not true, mainly, I need to consider the options carefully because having always enjoyed (mostly) recovery and 3 years later still finding the challenge I am having a want more moment, I can do more and I need to, is this the push and shove I need but never wanted? Could be,

Watch this space to see what happens, but then I am sure there are doubters amongst us that we say no, nothing will change..

 

 

Day erm…. no idea

Ever since I started my blog me.uk, I’ve been doing the same thing eavery day: Eat sleep drive repeat.. eat sleep drive repeat… eat drive repeat sleep, drive sleep something, got confused again.. As another day melts in to the next its easy to get days mixed up. I am kept busy by managing my blog, marketing and personal things. I do everything via my laptop. Thanks to wordtree.io, I am able to monitor my niche, watch my search traffic grow and keep an eye on my sales and others as well. But recently I’ve been on a break. And all I do is eat, sleep, drive… repeat.

So, here we go again second day off shift and starting to ramp up and get in the mind set for another 4 days of eat sleep drive repeat, and very little time for myself and other essential things that I need to take care of and very rarely do. Still need to take care of the tax return for this year, of course time is running out on that one. The rest of the to do list is getting longer and time shorter and yes I am still doing little about it, tut..

Car insurance, what a joke.. my current provider have quoted nearly £700 which on a £600 car is comically high, quick compare on the meerkat site and £221 is the best. #epicFail

Had a lovely couple of days off, so I spent them doing some extra stuff I wasn’t able to finish at home and in that free time I played some online games in elitist gaming, they have so many options, you can Go Here and check for more. So anyways in this couple of days off, I was thinking how far can I go working for someone else, don’t get me wrong I love my job, well to be honest I do it for the people. Helping people, families is the best part of the job and the challenges are a close second. I need to be around people more and more and the more I think about it the more I know where and what I need to do.

The problem, apart from what I make it I need to be earning I cannot lose one job in the maybe I can earn elsewhere. Confidence in my talent, of course I have confidence but with a tint of doubt. I am not very good with paperwork and this is a major problem for me. If I have any chance of success I need a good team around me, time to practise and get going

GSD, don’t ask what it means.

But, a journey of a thousand miles begins with the first step. Better step then, and step up..

Whatever the day is,

working a shift pattern that involves 7 days a week one day tends to melt into the next and I lose track of what day it is.

Now, the last few days have been wonderful, a quiet day on the roads Xmas day and off to friends on boxing day followed by two nice days at home. The problem, if I can call it that is that the last afternoon of the ‘off’ shift days I will have a down period of time when I start to wind up for the time back on the road, the next 4 days when my life is on the road, eat sleep and repeat.. Certainly not family friendly but it is a steady income.

Now sometimes the down period will be quite short and on the odd occasion it will be longer and harder border on depression, my loving wife is quite the empath.. What I mean is she reflects my emotions, when I am on a high life is great and when I am bouncing off the walls in the down time it reflects badly on both of us. This week was a bad week, well couple of hours anyway, maybe just a delayed reaction to the full moon but it was a bad time for both of us.

In February we will have been married 30 years, the love between us is clear and strong. But, we need time together to build and keep our relationship strong.

Happiness is a choice, sometimes choices are hard to make..

Happy new year friends and family,

yep been thinking..

and if you are the smart ones that are following this yes I have missed a few days,

Anyway, I have for some time been a having a polite argument with myself about what and where to go in my life, always wondering if there is more to what I can do, even can I work smarter not harder. OK so I enjoy my recovery job, I do it for the people and that seems to get me places in the job dealing with people that are either stressed due to broken down or shock because of the trauma of the RTC that they have just suffered. But, for some time also been very interested in the mind and the power it has, what you think you are.. you become, thanks to people like Derren Brown and others hypnosis has become something I enjoy and want to progress with.

Now, the other day I met a nice lady in the day job that was a hypnotist, was.. She tells me she gave up because she was to busy, to many clients that wanted help in the evening, So she gave it up for a career in the city! Which is a little strange as they had a couple of young children,

That got me thinking, what would I do to get to that stage? What a nice problem to have.

Get of here and where was I up to in that book,

 

Day 2 – Mixed feelings

Today was the first day back on shift on the day job. Mixed because I love my job, but at the same time I know 48 hours at least spread over the next 4 days is hard work, hard because I know that I feel like I am going to be spending more time in the truck than home and being tired enough to fall asleep after my dinner. The other side is I love the helping of others part, fixing people and picking up cars doing my best to leave a positive note on someones bad day.

Always feel down on the night before the shift starts, after a couple of wonderful days with the wife and the family, work starts and what has to be done is done, and there is todays lesson.. Why I am not doing that for myself? Throwing 48 hours per working week into something that is a benefit to me and my family and not someone else, hmm..

Lazy? Nope don’t see that one, I work hard for the day job, at least 48 hours is not easy per week. So, has to be confidence or worse scared..

Scared?!? (don’t laugh) Most people have some mental block somewhere in their head, so if you are scared of success without admitting it and doing something about it is going to hold you back without you even knowing it.

Scared of success, and freedom to do what you want? Crazy but may just be true…